It's been a bit longer than hoped to post on here. Oops! Life, ya know?
I started writing this last week and knew I needed to post once I heard NeedtoBreathe's song off their new album called 'Clear.' (!!!!!!)
It's been an interesting month so far-- I'm currently on the hunt for a new place to live and new roommate(s), and per usual fashion, hoping it will work out exactly how I want. Queen-like tendencies at it again. Yet with the inevitable wobbliness of life, I feel more rooted in my faith than I have in months. It's truly all a dance, isn't it?
With the tumultuous both in my life and in our current world, I began to think about what I know to be true. What to me is so clear, it needs no second thought. Let me tell you, the list was a succinct one. Thankfully I was brought to this verse in my devotion the other morning:
1 Corinthians 8-12
Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will cease; as for tongues, they will be stilled; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part will disappear. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a dim reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, as I am fully known.
This verse says what I cannot always communicate on my own. This life is only a glimmer of what's to come; a half-known. I often times walk through this life with only a half-view, half-awake in a world I've created for myself, and act as if it's the full picture. And we all know anything half-done isn't the way to go.
For now we see only a dim reflection as in a mirror, but someday it will be face to face.
What's clear in my life? Well, certainly not circumstances, that's for sure! It all seems incredibly murky right now. My life is a compilation of half-thoughts. I keep telling my friends and family I have no sense of what I desire anymore. Ask me three years ago? I would have drawn a diagram with a big black arrow pointing to my ultimate goals and how I would arrive there. Now? A pen in my pocket, nowhere near ready to touch paper.
I took the above picture in North Carolina while on a walk with my mom. I remember her stopping and saying, "Hey! Look at how crisp and clear that reflection is on the water. You should take a picture!" I reluctantly whipped out my camera and snapped a few photos. Now taking a look, I'm pleased with how it turned out-- the reflection of the tree line on the water. The contrast of the dark shades of green and the almost non-existent sky. Crisp. Clear.
Grasp the things you love. Let go of the things you don't. Sometimes it really is that simple.
If you have any encouraging words on the topic of clarity and discernment, I would love to have you send them my way. We're all in this together!